Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in shaysmiles' LiveJournal:

Friday, June 11th, 2004
11:55 pm	The Kiss that rocked my world Okay, so yeah... I'm definitely seriously involved with someone and this afternoon I totally did something I have never done before!! I don't know what got into me... well, yes I do... ya know that feeling that you get when you meet someone for the first time and you get that puppy love crush on them... yeah... definitely me. Well, only I've known this guy for a while. Anyways... today I let him kiss me... a couple times and oooooo man!!! Did it feel good!!! I was sooooooo caught up in the moment that I didn't even feel all that bad and honestly... I don't feel all that horrible right now... but I feel bad that I don't feel bad. Is that normal? Anyways... he was definitely the best kisser I have ever had and I am completely attracted to him... but I don't think it will ever happen again because the fucker pulled a bitch ass move on me tonight and really pissed me off. Well, okay... so he didn't really piss me off and yeah, it prolly will happen again... but he still shouldn't have got my hopes up that I would see him again tonight and then not of shown up. The stupid prick. But ooooooo... his lips we sooooooo soft and he embraced me like he had been dying to for so long... it felt good to know that someone other than the person I am serious with thinks I'm attractive... of course... he's only seen me with clothes on... he doesn't know what damage I have underneath and I know he'd run if he did. Yeah, so I spent 3 wonderful hours feeling on top of the world and then it all came crashing back down again. Its for the best though... I know that it is... the guy totally isn't someone I could see becoming a serious situation and I love the guy I am with to an extent that I couldn't even explain it to ya'll... just if you have been so deep in love that you don't know why you love the person, you just do... you'd understand. I don't know... I want it to happen again... maybe I'll just have myself a little booty call on the side... oh my gosh.. I am soooo horrible and I'm going to hell... I'm sitting here saying that I am planning on cheating on my significant other... how horrible is that? My God... just push me down now. -Shala (Comment on this)
Friday, June 4th, 2004
6:46 pm	Smile... I'm cheesy!!! Ya, so I want to cut my hair... short... really short... but not G.I. Jane short... more like Something About Mary short, but I have 2 walls bearing in on me telling me not to. The first, a boyfriend that thinks I'm going to look like a boy and myself that is afraid that I won't like it and then I'll have to wait another year or 2 for it to be back where it is now... but hmmmm... I really want to. I butchered my bangs last weekend, I look like a little girl that got ahold of some big 'ol garden shears and went to town. So yeah... anyways... Ya know what's weird? Knowing that your little brother that just graduated went off this weekend and got piss ass drunk with your cousin. Yeah. Okay... see ya! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 29th, 2004
6:19 pm	Where is my brain on Saturdays? Have you ever just woke up and wondered... hmmmm... why am I even waking up today? Yeah, that was me this morning!!! I woke up and the only thing that made me pull my ass out of bed was the fact that my daughter was sitting in her crib screaming for me to come and get her and give her a ba-ba. I mean, it's not like I was wishing that I hadn't woke up, but I just think it would have been better for me to just of stayed in bed this morning because I don't know where my brain disappeared to today. All day long I have started a thought and not been able to complete it or I have started a conversation and something with my brain would shut down and I have found myself just standing there like a dork wondering what I was even talking about. I find it quite annoying, but my friends seem to think that its amusing. So, this is my first posting and I am not even sure if anyone will ever see this, but I am hoping that some wondering soul will and will find time to at least say something to me. I'm not a person that needs much but to be acknowledged. Hmmm... yeah... so... Well, work is calling me and I think a cig is as well. Enjoy. Shay (1 Comment |Comment on this)